We had many missionary friends warn us that re-entry into life back home would be hard. So in an attempt to give myself some therapy I will try to write about what's going on in my head, heart and spirit.
The first 2 weeks felt totally like being a fish out of water. There were so many questions to answer in regards to our trip that we felt overwhelmed in knowing how to explain what we saw, felt and experienced, and in many ways that is still the case. Cari and I have found it very difficult to pick up were we left off at work, but have managed with the help of our co-workers. The kids overall seem to have taken the transition smoothly and of course have very much enjoyed reconnecting with friends.
Maybe one of the most difficult things for me personally has been how to deal with the pace of life here in the states. It goes much deeper than just being too busy, it is the fact that the ability to go below the surface in relationships in our society is very difficult, because of all the things we put into a day just does not leave the time needed to walk with others.
I also find myself struggling with the stewardship of this life God has given me. Where I spend my time, energy and finances is in serious need of transformation. We have looked into selling our home and questioned what our working roles could or should be. Right now its all up in the air and we pray that we do not interfere in letting it all land firmly in God's hands.
The biggest upfront positive we came back with is a greater love for people and a deeper understanding of community. It is safe for me to say that our relationship with Jesus and others go hand in hand and it cannot be one without the other if we are to live the 'Christian' life.
Please join us in prayer as we desire to be in Christ.
-Kurt
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
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